The 2nd part of the performance

It's not really smooth, but here's the performance for CNY night in church.



cheers.

CNY

Ah.. the end of Jan is coming. CNY is coming. And where am I? In the land that doesn't know chinese new year even exist. Let alone, knowing that lion dance is something that we (chinese) still do.
No sound of fireworks this year, no beating of drums, no visiting friend's houses, no good chinese reunion dinner, no NOTHING. Sad eh ?

Well, the consolation for all this is, today, we had a celebration in church, a pre-CNY celebration, in which we had performances throughout the night. The C&C group (college and career group), were asked to preform, and without using much of my frontal lobes, I just said 'yes'. Good idea or not, I can't say for sure.
Anyhow, to make the grandmother story short, we only managed to practice for 2 nights, because of schedule constraint. We played and sang two songs. First song was 'TO then ends of the earth' and the second was 'dui mian the ni hai kan guo lai' by Ah Niu. We were nervous at first, but managed it quite well, except for the last part of the 2nd song, but it was still good because on the band members played the harmonica. Ppl were going wild. Haha.

I'm tired. Here's a pre-pic (before we started). Will post more later. Meanwhile, Happy Chinese New Year.

random thoughts

Hey peeps. It's been a while since I've updated this, or since I've sent out emails. I think I need to readjust my schedule.

Anyhow, I was asked to lead one of the groups during fellowship the other day, on living through the Spirit. Yes. The Spirit, the Holy Spirit, HS in short for convenience of typing. It is sad indeed, that many of us do not have an intimate relationship with the HS. I myself, believe that I can go on to a higher level in my relationship with Him.

Not to speak bad about what people think, or how they go about things, BUT, I really felt sad, that the only explaination that ppl had that God, had so many rules and that we had to try so hard to obey it was because, it was for our own good. Yes. That is not wrong. However, have we not heard so many non-christians come to us and say, "I like your God, but, it just seems like there are too many things to follow. Too rigid. Too confined by rules." By just answering, it's for your own good, won't simply cut it would it? And that living by the Spirit, is living by God's rules. The end. Finished. Like watching a movie that didn't quite end as well, I thirst for a better answer. Or, at least I used to when I didn't quite know or understand the Holy Spirit.

Living by the Spirit. Following rules. Two of which means the same? Yes, and no. God sent the HS to empower us to do things beyond our imagination. You see, God does want us to obey Him for our own good, but many times we fail in flesh, because we are weak. How many times have I tried to stop being judgemental but can't. How many times have I promised myself, that I won't slander about that person, but I did? I can't remember how many times, but the last time was just today. Sadly, I am fighting a losing battle sometimes. Should it be ALWAYS like this?

I answer with a big resounding NO. N-O.

The Holy Spirit, intercedes for you, gives you joy, gives your strength, gives you power to overcome those which you thought you could never. Of course, with great power, comes great responsiblity. A christian would have to first repent of their mistakes, and then ask God for help. I believe, that is when the Holy Spirit fills you and empowers you for change.

John 14:26
26But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.

Zechariah 4:6
So he said to me, "This is the word of the LORD to Zerubbabel: 'Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,' says the LORD Almighty.

Not by your might. Not by my might. But by the Holy Spirit.

Amen.

revelation

Restless days, restless nights. Can't study, but sleep all the time. I was wondering what was wrong with me. Why can't I function normally? Sitting in the bus today (gee, I seem to be getting all this while getting to a destination), I realised, my inablity to worship God as much as I used to, is really making me, topsy turvy.

Just like everything on earth, we are built for purpose. One is worship and glorify God, and the second one I believe, is carrying out His work, His purposes for us. If we fail lto do both, we feel, inadequate. We feel, something's not quite right. That's how I felt. Squirmy. Unworthy. When we fail to respond to God's calling, something inside of us dies.

I believe that I'm here in Canada for a reason, I'm here to do something for God, not myself. Be a doctor? Maybe. Gain exp? Maybe. Be God's influence? Most certainly. God promises abundance of wealth, but in this context, it's not getting riches, big mansions, and most stylish cars. I believe, this wealth is greater than any of those. The knowledge that you are fulfilling your purpose, and that you aren't a bum. Haha. It makes sense doesn't it? God pruning those branches that are not productive? It's when you fulfill the purposes of God, the ones He meant for you, you finally feel your worth.

Praise be to God, let every part of my body, every bone, every tissue, every cell, be for the purpose of God, and let them all rejoice always in the Lord!!!!!

here's an amusing one

While I was just munching on chocolates, I was also recalling all the times some girls told me, that they didn't like chocolate.
It's really odd that any girl would say that (yes, I know.. I'm overgeneralizing), BUT for a girl to not like chocolate, is like saying how a guy doesn't like sports or technology. Like saying, the sun rises in the west and sets in the east. Like saying that bees hate honey and ants favorite food is bitter gourd, that cockroaches are clean and are only found in clean apts. That Man U, Chelsea or Arsenal are really great teams. :p

Get what I mean?

I know. I have too much free time on my hands rite? Ian not wasting time would be equivalent to all described above.

Right.

Happy new year then... :D

New ol' me

Year after year. All the resolutions to do better. Which year would I actually look back and be glad for once?

Happy new year everyone. Break for hols, meant break from blogging. When else would I laze around to write a blog? Only when I'm not supposed to. Human nature takes its course once again.

So many things went through my mind as of late. Worse is when you can't express how you feel, or when there's no one to talk to. Irritating little thing isn't it ? This is, humans at their best. Complaining and whining. Sad, but true.

What am I talking about? I have no idea. I guess this is how everyone would feel when they have to start working or going back to school again. Just plain lousy. I started in the emerge department today, and like such a noob, I was half clueless with what to do (I say only half because it isn't so bad this time). Need to read up and know my stuff I guess. No easy way out. THe funniest is talking to old people, who have LOADS to tell you. Adults just seem to want to tell you everything. Unlike kids, who either aren't bothered with who you are or they just play around you and try to attract your attention. I told my mum in my email to her, that perhaps I should be a radiologist. Almost zero people contact. Just dealing with physicians. Which, could be really nice. Peaceful and quiet. Kidding.

2006. So what does this year bring fourth ? I hope to pass all my exams. At the rate I'm worrying, my head will be shinier than the shiniest shoes. And soon I would have to get wax to keep it that way. (Don't get it? Forget it then... :p )

Hope all of you out there are having a good first few days of the new year. Me? I don't quite know yet.