emptiness

No real words to describe how hollow we can be inside. When surrounded in this world, we think all external things satisfy, but truly, it only does for such a short while. How many times have we tried to substitute something eternal with something so contemporary?
It's unfortunate that we are so short sighted. It's unfortunate that I have such vision which can't be corrected by mere glasses.

Day after day, in all the mistake I make, I question, how can some being, so holy so perfect, ever love someone like me? And in my sin I continue sinning, just because sometimes, I feel there's no use turning around, because I'm such a sinner. Just like with people, when you do something they don't like, you're not in their circle of friends anymore, or the quarrels even sometimes relatives have among each other, then they don't speak to each other for years.

Like a disobedient son that has angered the father so much, there's so much confusion as to what to do next.

Sometimes, I cannot comprehend the value that God sees in me, and that despite and in spite of all I do, I am still loved. He has given so much, forgiven so much, yet in my sinning sometimes I so forget to turn back. It gives me the feeling of being so ungrateful, but even then, God continues to forgive. Will this ever run out? His love? Hopefully not. I need more and more of it each day.

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By Your side
I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When Your face
Is before me
I can only imagine

Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for You Jesus or in awe of You be still
Will I stand in Your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son
I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever
Forever worship You
I can only imagine