Wednesday, March 08, 2006

things u do and regret later

It's interesting how we do things so impulsively and then regret of our actions like an hour later. Well, it's not that I have never not done this before, I have, but yet I still repeat things I wish I never do.
Take for instance, just the other day, after preaching tolerance to others and telling myself ot be patient with this ONE person, I finally couldn't do. I blew it. I guess the tipping point for me was, not only was the person lying, that particualr person did not want to admit the mistake that was made. Instead of apologizing and promising not to do it again, this person turns the guilt trip around and accuses me of not being trusting enough.

Fine.

I admit. I'm at fault too. If I didn't pick too much on this person, maybe all my advice wouldn't fall onto death ears. Maybe, if I was patient enough, God would speak to that person. Maybe if I be patient for a while longer I won't have to face THIS anymore. Maybe this and maybe that. I was giving myself excuse.

Without God's love in me, and without His patience, I found myself to have ran out quickly. Ran out on patience, ran dry on God's love. Whenever I do this, whenever I do something wrong, I feel like I've fallen from grace. Well. Not that everything's been really running smoothly as I'd like anyways as it, but this is worse.

I guess, as much as I feel like I'm slipping I can only hold on to this:

2 Corinthians 12:9 (New International Version)

9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

I guess I need to do the next thing. To say sorry eh ?

4 comments:

Anna said...

Ahh...yes. Lots of things we do we regret. I had just the one incident this evening. Not so dramatic as yours but it's enough for me to blog about.
I told myself to eat just a little bit but then I ordered a bacon mozza burger with fries. I feel so gross afterwards and still feel constipated and totally regreted the fact that I fell for it... LOL

JWo said...

Hey Ian,

Well, Christ was full of grace AND truth, so on one hand, you can apologize, but on the other hand, the person still needs to be told that he/she is in the wrong. I'm a truth guy myself, so I tend to be harder on people and pick on them ruthlessly. Muahh hahaha...

Anyway, totally understand where you come from. For some reason, God has placed a few of those people in my life...

deb said...

oh dear anna. sometimes unfiltered thoughts are not always the way to go... lol. too funny.

falling out of God's grace is impossible if you have accepted his grace through Jesus Christ. don't be too hard on yourself. :o)

peasantboy said...

yeah. i know what u mean josh. but i guess, there was a better way of handling it. that's what i meant.
i also understand why God had put this ppl in my life. i totally know why. haha.

erm.. anna.... thanks for sharing ur bowel movement diary with us. hahaha. how about sharing the burgers instead. muah hahahaha (from josh)
:P